life things.

I am exhausted. 
And a girl was let go today (she was only here for 3-4 weeks?). I'm going to have to take her Saturday shifts...
I need more rest, but I know that I'm gonna go crazy if I just sleep when I get home.
The routine of "sleep eat work eat sleep eat work" won't cut it for me. 

Also, I had a nice cry yesterday. I let my mind wander and think of old things. I try to convince myself that it is completely gone and I'm totally free from it, but in reality I know that it is always there. It is lingering in the depths of my mind, waiting to creep back up. When I think, I feel disgusted and I wonder how I can live with myself; I always come to the same conclusion. Christ.