highschool

I went out for dinner today with some of my old highschool friends and I couldn't help but feel so out of place. The only thing they talked gossiped about were people from our highschool - whether it was that they were pregnant, bisexual, gay, "got really pretty," or "actually quite nice."  
F this, F that. 
I feel like whenever I hear the word, knives are stabbing at my ears.  
One girl kept mentioning that we are meant to live life. God gave us this life to live it, so she wants to try everything at least once. The purpose for her life is to find a decent job and to be able to come home to a nice family. She does not want her job to control her life, but she does want to make enough money to sustain life's pleasures. 
After dinner, we sat in the parking lot and talked. When I don't know what to say, I don't say anything at all. So I just sat there, listening to their conversation while I contemplated with my own thoughts. 
I feel like I've lost some innocence today.
& maybe I should have spoken up.
I'm still working on it.