First month of school.

It is...OCTOBER ALREADY. Again, I'm just going to blab on about random thoughts running through my mind. 

September went by pretty quickly & it has made me realize how busy I'm going to be this term. Every day there is something that has to be done for the next day...either it's textbook readings, group meetings, or frosh cell prepping. Before I know it, it's the weekend, and come Monday, the cycle starts all over. There have been times where I have felt uncertain of whether or not I am overestimating my ability to take on so many things...

Frosh cell has been pretty good so far (in my opinion). I still don't think I know them very well, but then again, it has only been 3 weeks. Numbers have been declining, but apparently they go back up again when we have our "relationship" week :3

Even though I only got 5.5-6 hours some nights this past week, God pulled me through my first 3 exams. They all went okay..hopefully. It kinda sucks though...even though I wasn't stressed during the week, I come to Toronto and see my family...but while studying here, my mom sees me for the first time and comments on how I can't do anything fun the next day because I have to stay at home and study because apparently "I don't study enough." Even after telling her that I have been working really hard, she doesn't believe me and tells me that "I hardly study." Sometimes, she just makes me stressed...

Having house meetings are goooooood. They are encouraging, challenging, and definitely a blessing! *sigh. 
I witnessed my friend's baptism today. :) Praise God.
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The following words are to myself.
I think, I am sad. The key word is think. I don't think I understand myself very well. I do not know why I think the way I think. There are so many things that bother me, but I don't want to say out loud. I'm disappointed that I'm such a selfish person...to discover things that have been going on in other peoples' lives when I had no idea. I only think about myself and not the people around me. It's hard to voice my opinion sometimes and I don't know how to express myself either. Sometimes, I just want to be alone. To have that one on one time with Him. I want to increase my knowledge, but I don't feel like I have time. There is some struggle as to what to pick, but what I should pick is obvious. I want to talk to this person, but I don't want to talk to this person. It's hard to talk to this person. Talking to this person makes me frustrated. Why am I frustrated? I have no reason to be frustrated. 
Oh, so confusing.