Never enough

I had my final clinical evaluation the past week and it made me realize that I have very low self-esteem.  As one of our final evaluations, we needed to write a self-reflection on an event that happened during clinical (lame I know). The only feedback from my instructor was that she thought I was too hard on myself. She also brought up the fact that when I was completing my midterm evaluation on myself, it took me 10x longer to write something positive about myself compared to "things to work on."

So this got me thinking about how people have told me I don't take compliments well or that I am overly negative about myself.

I might be, but I can't help it. I constantly compare myself to others who may be prettier, fitter, or more "spiritual" than me...others who seem to have their lives all put together. I always feel that I am never good enough or I will never be enough.